Inferior

I think about my future and where I'm going to end up from things I am doing right now.I have straight A's and people say that I have a natural ability for everything I do.I don't mean to brag and many of you may be envious, but I don't think that it's that great.I mean most people have things they're better at than everything else, right?Even if it isn't academic such as skateboarding, but what about me?Right now for me it seems that everything I do I'll probably do pretty well at leaving me with many job opportunities, which should be great.But I feel like I have no definite future not even a slight glimpse into it.I know what I like such as movies, music, books, food, etc. But I've never made any sort of movie, I'm not that good at playing music, I'm not a good writer(Just look at my blogs.I'm sure I have plenty of spelling and grammatical errors.Look I don't even use paragraphs!), and I'm not the greatest cook in the world.I may be good at everything I do, but I'm only that, good. I'm not excellent or superb at anything I do.I mean sure I have those times when I'm just on a roll with what I'm doing, but those never last long.Even with things that I think I know pretty well if I look into them more I'm only scratching the surface and that I know nothing at all. I feel inferior to everyone else around me. An IQ test will show you that.114?Or somewhere near that number.Maybe it's just too early to tell.Maybe I just need something that I can express all of my ideas through, but until that I'm still going to feel inferior.No one special. Except maybe my hair.

Oh and of course it's raining!Gotta love rain.

"In these matters the only certainty is that nothing is certain."-Pliny the Elder

"Doubt is not a pleasant condition, but certainty is absurd."-Voltaire

"Not to be absolutely certain is, I think, one of the essential things in rationality."-Bertrand Russell

The Pain

Over my 3 day weekend I went to Mammoth, which was great.Lots of snowing and fresh powder though I almost froze my fingers off and ate it a couple of times it was fun.It left me with a sore neck so whenever I lay down I have a hard time getting up.Other than that life goes on as normal.

"...Must have been trying to adopt the principles of nonsensical, dadaist art...you know, like painting a picture of a cat and titling it 'Dog'."

Worthwhile

I have updated this in a long time just because there's been nothing worthwhile to write about.Thoughts come and go, but nothing has held my interest. Maybe it's time to take a risk and do something instead of playing it safe.Maybe speak my mind and not just on this blog.Maybe I'll do something tomorrow.

"If you don't risk anything you risk even more."-Erica Jong

The Grey

Well another week has rolled by and between being stranded at a bowling alley and my tv debut tomorrow there hasn't been anything that exciting.

I have found a cool free album by Danger Mouse that's called The Grey Album.Combines the "White album" by The Beatles and The Black Album by Jay Z.Before you even think that it'll sound bad listen to it first.It's like mixing mayonnaise, soy sauce, and dried bonita mixed together with rice that may sound sick, but you've never tried it have you?It tastes good because I have tried it before.Or like genetically altered fermented soy beans.That's all for now.Until next time