Copying

Copying. Makes me feel stupid. I feel like I'm getting dumber from every day that passes by. I'm starting to question how much of my work is actually my work. I'm feeling like a total failure right now. Feels like I'm copying every other thing nowadays. It's not a good feeling. I wish I would stop, but my procrastinating demons won't leave me. I question how well I'll do in school. Essays? Those haven't been doing so well. When I do my own work it seems to always turn out bad. How am I supposed to take SATs like this? I don't even know anymore. Right at this moment I'm feeling the worst I've felt in a while. My chest is feels like it's on fire and choking up. I can't even write a decent essay anymore. Even this is a bunch of jumbled up sentences that hardly make much sense. This all needs to change now. Maybe this is just how things are supposed to be, but I don't know. I don't feel the sense of pride from getting my own work done anymore, it always feels like it's someone else's because it probably is. From here on out I'm changing the way I conduct things. If I don't then things will only get worse.