It's sad to think that when I get a bad grade I feel the bad grade. It hurts to get a bad grade on so many levels.
It's sad. Since when did getting bad grades hurt so much?
But I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels this way. The pang of a bad grade. Some feel it at C's or lower and some others at B's.
I can only see this as living in fear. Fear that if I fail then I failed myself, my teacher, and everyone I know. But when I succeed it's not much better. Success is little more than hitting par.
But when happiness is found in an A and sadness if found in an F what does that say?
That we have to be made to learn through fear?
Mistakes and failures become the bane of my existence. Failure is not an option, ever.
But living how sweet can success be when it's out of fear?
I'd have to say not very. Sure sometimes it's great, but for the majority it feels like a hollow victory. Hollow because it wasn't out of my motivation to do well rather my fear of not doing well.
How can one be truly happy when it's constantly chased by fear?
I think it's something that is seen all the time in literature and other arts. The man at the top unhappy and the man at the bottom happy.
Ignorance must really be bliss because knowledge only brings fear, despair, suffering, and a thirst for more.
1 comment:
FUJITA! hmm, that was very well worded, haha. and it's exactly what you said.. we fear that the other person will not care enough or even, not at all. trust is so fragile. but I really should really stop lying to my parents about my whereabouts and who I am with exactly. perhaps if you attempt to confide in your parents, I will as well? =)
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