Perspective

Today was a good day.

From going to Signal Hill to visiting buddies at UCI.

I suppose this will be more of the same of the last post, but I think today really was an eye opener for me. Listening to Javy talk about his essay on Chino Hills made me realize how right he is in describing the hills as something that we climb over to reach a greater world beyond them. The duality of the hills around me really came out then. How oppressive these brown giants can be blocking the horizon from seeing any further than the decaying grass on them. But at the same time the bosom of the hills offer a feeling of safeness and home.

It felt so nice being on the freeways and not seeing a hill in sight. It gave me a feeling of their being an endless world out there to explore. And even though Signal Hill was another hill, it was different. The only hill in sight for miles around us and it gave us view across the horizon that no other hill in Chino Hills could. The shimmering lights of the city below were like tiny hands waving begging to be answered.

Then seeing two of the Freshh guys just kicking it in college just made me want to leave high school behind me more. Sure Ayala has provided great memories but to me it almost seems like if the boring and bad times outweigh the good ones. Just walking around the halls and playing ping pong made me realize of a life beyond the hollow words, empty promises, and the this and thats of the people I go to school with. The ridiculousness of how I think of some things as so serious. How for a long time this felt like the end of the road and there was nothing after. But no, not anymore. The haze is becoming clear.

I want to get my applications done. I feel motivated. I feel the desire.

This is it.

I gotta say, today was a good day.